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Fat Sex: The Naked Truth

An appreciation by Lynne Murray:

Sexual intimacy is the closest thing to actual magic that most of us ever get. It can be transformative and healing, but like any drive so powerful and so close to the core of existence, it can also be used to limit, devalue and manipulate.

“Using sex to make a sale” is so engrained in our collective culture that it’s hard to trace how that mental virus entered into our system (another day, another rant). Because sex is vital to our survival as a species, “sexual attractiveness equals self-worth” is an easily found, reliable button. It’s been pressed so often and vigorously that we’re now conditioned to measure our self-worth against an impossible sexual stereotype created to grab the attention of a mass audience for commercial purposes. And what “grabs that attention” has also been created by the same button-pressing and conditioning.

Fat people have been particularly vulnerable to being victimized by this brainwashing.

Fat Sex: The Naked Truth (love the cover!), by Rebecca Jane Weinstein, Esq., MSW, founder of People of Size,  (an online community and social networking site which provides information, support, and interaction for “people of size”) was inspired by Weinstein’s own experience:

“No man will ever love you,” proclaimed my grandmother in her self-assessed infinite wisdom. I was nine or ten—old enough to know exactly what she was talking about, and young enough that I believed her. Thirty-five years later, in the kind of therapy they do for veterans of war, I understood that she wasn’t entirely right. But, she wasn’t entirely wrong. Of course, as any therapy veteran would know, right or wrong, it was not about a man’s love for me, but “my love for myself.” I’ll get right on that.

It took me years—years—to say the word fat. It took what felt like an entire brain overhaul to say the words fat sex.

Weinstein’s victory over that early damage shows clearly in her poised Today Show interview describing her journey to write Fat Sex.

This book is not a how-to or resource oriented guide like Hanne Blank‘s Big Big Love: A Sex and Relationships Guide for People of Size (and Those Who Love Them). Instead, Weinstein has collected display a wide range of stories describing how people have suffered damage from hostility toward their fat bodies or because of their attraction to fat partners. Some have been irretrievably wounded, while others have creatively found ways to flourish sexually–no matter what anyone thinks.

Fat Sex was “crowdfunded,” published through a Kickstarter campaign with money raised from people who care enough about to the subject material to contribute to the process.  I was among those who contributed, and in return I received a PDF copy. Weinstein also used social media to collect fat people’s stories about their own sexual experiences. (This evokes Laurie and Debbie’s story of collecting stories, writing, and models for Women En Large before the World Wide Web was a household word.)

Inevitably the story of a fat person’s sex life plays out in the midst of our currently poisonous social climate. Margaret Cho‘s impassioned introduction reminds us that being infected with self-hatred in the form of “you’re too fat to ____ [fill in the blank]” can be a death sentence. Cho herself developed bulimia that nearly killed her after being told she was too fat to be in the television show built around her stand-up comedy routine. “I felt like I was going to die and I nearly did. It was beyond my control, and almost 20 years later I am still utterly destroyed by any negative assessment of my, or any woman’s, body.”

Many of the experiences recounted in Fat Sex are triumphant such as Samantha who reports:

…my husband thinks I’m a rock star in bed. The women before me, and there were quite a few, were afraid to get naked, were even more self-conscious than me. … Once my clothes are off, I want to embrace my sexuality. I’m a sexual being.

During sex, it’s the one place I feel like I can just be me, let it all hang out. Yeah, I’ve got fat on me. But my junk still works like everybody else’s.

Fat people manifest a wide range of flavors of sexual expression–to name a few from the book:

  • a happily monogamous couple dealing with a family that refuses to respect their son’s fat wife;
  • a fat man with many satisfied girlfriends of various body sizes (who don’t know he’s a player);
  • a fat woman in a long-term, lesbian relationship dealing with insecurity as her fat partner loses weight due to diabetes;
  • and a long-term polyamorous triad in which “All three [partners] …  have issues with their own weight, but not with their partners’ [weight].”

In some stories the search for affection along with sex plays out in a more poignant manner.  Delilah had many partners–sometimes in consensual “gang bang” situations–from high school onward. Even after she had attained a cult following in fat fetish porn films, the men who admired her and sought her out for sex refused be seen with her in public. Students of human behavior have just begun to expand beyond considering fat women’s sexual experiences solely in light of male reactions like the ones Delilah dealt with.

Researcher Sonya Satinsky and her colleagues asked an extremely pertinent question, “How does a women’s feeling about her body impact sexual satisfaction?”  in “An Assessment of Body Image and its relationship to sexual function in women.” Just as Weinstein finds self-esteem is THE major factor. Satinsky’s study concludes that “having higher levels of body appreciation predicted higher levels of sexual function (arousal, orgasm, satisfaction, overall  function), regardless of body size.

So how do you get self-esteem when the whole world is telling you that your fat body is wrongity-wrong-wrong-wrong and undeserving of pleasure?  Most of those who have come to terms with their size (or their partner’s size) have had some contact with fat activism either in person or online.

In “Fat Shame to Fat Pride: Fat Women’s Sexual and Dating Experiences,” published in the journal Fat Studies: An Interdisciplinary Journal of Body Weight and Society, Jeannine A.  Gailey obverves that as difficult as it is to embrace fat pride, the effect on a woman’s sex life is dramatic. The women she surveyed report that, “With increased confidence, they are seeking partners who treat them well and satisfy them sexually.

As a storyteller, I have noted another development affirming the growing sexual prowress among fat women–

The recent popularity of so-called “curvy” or “Big Girl” erotica, a genre with strong romantic overtones that mark the intended audience as clearly female is another trend to watch. Authors publishing in this area inclue:  J. S. Scott (Big Girls and Bad Boys: A BBW Erotic Romance), Alexis Moore (Curves for the Billionaire), Christa Wick (Curves Ahead), Gretchen Lane (Big Girls Don’t Cry), Christin Lovell (Curvosity), Adriana Hunter (The Plus-Size Loving Series and the Wealthy Men & Curvy Women Series), and Australian Angelina Verdenis (Big Girls Lovin’ Series) and even a 2010 mainstream Silhouette entry, A Whole Lot of Love by Justine Davis.

My own experience gives credence to the “self esteem leads to better sex at any size.” I had the great good fortune to be raised to consider myself adequate to any task. Although I was a chubby kid and dieting was part of my life from age nine onward, no one ever told me anything was wrong enough with my body to make me unlovable. I naturally discovered masturbation as any adolescent will given enough privacy. By the time I was ready to explore sex with partners I was fat enough to turn some men off, but I just shrugged and moved on.

From Fat Sex to scholarly appreciation of self-esteem to curvy erotica, I feel hopeful as I watch so many fat people throwing off oppression to pursue a fully sensual life–one orgasm at a time!

7 Responses to “Fat Sex: The Naked Truth”

  1. Adelene Says:

    Um. Regarding that first paragraph. You do realize that asexual folks exist and at least one of us reads this blog, I hope?

  2. Debbie Says:

    Adelene, I’m sorry that you felt invisible. I edited the post for Lynne, and I thought the “most of us” was sufficient to clarify that it’s not universal. But I probably should have done more.

    Thanks for pointing it out!

  3. Adelene Says:

    The problematic bit was more “like any drive so powerful and so close to the core of existence”, the latter bit of which in particular has some significant tones of ‘if you don’t experience this you’re not a real person’.

  4. Lynne Murray Says:

    Adelene, I hope I did not in any way suggest that asexuality (which deserves its own post!) is not empowering when it reflects one’s own desires and feelings. If what I said came across that way, I do apologize, but I’m glad you commented because now I’m considering a future post on asexuality (please suggest references, I know a little, but it’s an interesting topic!)

    What I protest in this post and elsewhere is having asexuality assumed or thrust upon fat people from the outside by those who categorize about our personal lives simply by observing our body size. In such cases they do mean to exclude us from sexual expression and also from a wide range of sensual pleasures including enjoying food, being physically active in public and wearing whatever clothing we wish to wear.

  5. Adelene Says:

    I totally get what you’re trying to say (mostly from personal experience – intersectionality is a hell of a drug ;) ), the issue is more in the difference between saying ‘everyone should be allowed to be sexual/have sex’ and saying ‘everyone wants to be sexual/have sex’ – I very much agree with and approve of the former; it’s the latter that’s not true and problematic to imply. (Sort of like how everybody should be allowed to eat whatever they want, but some people don’t like spicy food – and if people think everybody likes spicy food, those of us who don’t get some nasty surprises.)

    As to future posts – I don’t have any specific resources to share, but if you have questions, I’d be happy to answer them. I assume you can see the email address attached to my reply, but if not, Google should be able to point you in my direction; I go by Adelene Dawner just about everywhere.

  6. Christa Wick Says:

    Thank you for such a lovely post! I’ve read and enjoyed all but one of the authors you mention in the same paragraph as me and they are favorites. I look forward to the other material you mention, too. Now I just wish photographers would catch up with the authors!!! I spend as much time searching for covers as I do writing some of the titles. The photographers want to go for the cliche and show BBWs on a scale, on an exercise bike, or eating. I want pictures of them being ravished/worshipped!

  7. Rebecca Jane Weinstein Says:

    Thank you so much for discussing my book and for your support with the Kickstarter campaign. I am honored that so many people helped me make this work happen.

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